GMC

So today I was describing my grandmother, Charlotte, to my best friend. I was telling her about my 14th birthday when my grandmother threw me a birthday party and we played all the ridiculous games. I literally started crying my eyes out. Its like I told Amanda, its been 5 years and I still can't believe shes gone.

Grandmother always told me she would be here the day I graduated from high school and college, the day I got married, when I had my first child, etc. Well, I've graduated from high school and I'm halfway through college and I'm beginning to approach all these milestones in my life and it hit me all of the sudden, like it did a few years ago, shes not here. Shes not going to be here.

My grandmother was one of the greatest people I ever met. She had a confidence about her that I can only hope to have one day. She knew no strangers. She could walk up to anyone and strike up a conversation. I wish I could do that. She had amazing artistic ability. Because of her, I have my love of art. I sketch some, but nothing compares to her work. More than anything, my grandmother had love to give. She loved me and all of her grandchildren to the fullest. If any of us needed her for anything she would drop whatever she was doing and come to us. I cant tell you how many times she took me to dentist appointments or took care of me while I was sick. I only wish I could have done more for her when she was sick.

I'll never forget the day she told me she had cancer. She took me for a walk in her neighborhood and even when she told me I couldnt fully grasp the enormity of the situation. Its like I felt like nothing could take my grandmother away from me so soon. I felt like she would be one of the success stories. She beat it once. But then it came back. For my fifteenth birthday my grandmother bought me a penguin down blanket. She took me to dinner at souper salad where I sat on her lap for the last time...even though I was 15 years old. She died about a month later. But not until she took me out for a manicure and a pedicure where she proceeded to get her toenails painted red except for her left big toe which was painted green...in honor of the Christmas season. She was just unique like that.

I will never forget what a truly amazing person my grandmother was. I know she is with me everyday. And I hope to one day become the kind of person she was.

I love you Grandmother. Youre always in my thoughts.

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Astrology - Today's Sagittarius Horoscope



Here is your Today's Sagittarius Horoscope


Your ability to see through people is strong now and while you may not want to call every last person in the world on their lies or self-deception, it does help you navigate the complex social territory.


Compatibility:Capricorn


Mood:Smart


Lucky Color:Rose Pink


Lucky Number:94


Lucky Time of Day:10pm
 
So I'm liking this horoscope for the day. I like to think that I have the abilites it descirbes. And I'm looking forward to 10pm...maybe something lucky will actually happen :)

yayyy weekend

So this is going to be a short entry bc I'm definitely about to go eat some dinner. :)

I'm pretty happy its finally the weekend....at least it is for me. No Friday classes! WOOT! Had a pretty decent week. Last night went to Ashley's with the bestie and had dinner with Ashley and Alex. Ashely made some awesome spagetti and Amanda and I brought yummy garlic bread. Then Christian came over and hung out in our dorm later when we got back. All in all, a good night. :) I love being with friends.

So tonight Vampire Diaries and Supernatural are FINALLY returning! Can't freakin wait. Alex is coming over to watch. Now all I need is the return of One Tree Hill and I will be satisifed! :D

Thoughts for the day: My friends' dog passed away today suddenly. I can only imagine how they are feeling. They are in my thoughts and prayers. I've never personally went through the loss of a pet, but I know if I lost my cat the way they lost their dog I would be miserable. I want to say I hope everything works out for them, but I know it will take a while to get there.

Well anyways off to dinner! YAY FOOD! lol. :)

"that what does not kill us makes us stronger"

Cant wait to watch him on TV tonight....future husband!!

....and him :D

Monday

Well here it is. The beginning of another week. Only, unfortunately, this week I am back at school. Gotta love it. I mean I missed my friends and everything, just did not miss the whole going to class, having to wake up, do homework, etc. Blah. But at least Easter break is fast approaching!

So the thought on my mind lately has been friends. Old friends, new friends, life-long friends, bad "friends", etc. So many people come in and out of your life and yeah your family is always there, but its the ones who you surround yourself with that seem to make an impact...
Take my best friend for example, she is definitely a life-long friend. No doubt about it. I know she will always be there for me, through thick and thin. Yeah we have our bad days, but who doesn't? She truly understands me like nobody else. In many ways she is like a sister to me. I know I can always count on her and I hope she feels the same. :)
Then there are the friends who you think are your friend, but really arent. I recently had to deal with this situation. It sucks, to say the least. But at the same time you learn somethings about yourself and about the people you choose to associate with. These people are just another one of those life lessons you encounter. Theres no avoiding them...unfortuantely. But in the end its the lesson learned that counts. And the person who hurt you becomes a fleeting memory.
Old friends seem to leave a lasting memory, especially on me. One old friend especially. I miss her alot, but I mostly miss who she used to be. We've both changed dramatically since we both walked the halls of high school together, but in the end, its a good thing. We both chose different paths. But she was an important part of my life. I cant say everything we went through was good. I definitely learned some lessons from her too, but that time in my life is over now and I can look back and smile at the good times and forget the bad.
I guess my point is that friends are important. I dont know what I would do without my current ones and I'm not sure what kind of person I would be today if I hadn't met the ones I met before. I'm also looking forward to the friends I meet in the future and the lessons I will learn from them.

Speaking of friends, I just learned that a friend of mine's grandpa died a week ago. I was very saddened by this news because I knew him and he was a very good man. My thoughts and prayers are with her family. I know what they're going through and I hope everything works out for them.

Well thats all for today...I gots to get ready for bed.

"There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will."

best friends

<3

*inspiration for my blog*

New Blog...

Well as you can see, this blog was orginally designed for people to keep up to date with my family...but that never took off. lol. so now I decided to take over it for myself and include my family in it whenever i feel the need to! :)

The name of my blog is inspired by one of my new favorite movies, According To Greta starring my favorite actress, Hilary Duff. Now say what you will about Hilary Duff, but she is one of the coolest celebrities out there in my book and since this is my blog, thats what counts! :) She will always be a role model to me. But, back to the movie. The main character, Greta, keeps a journal where she rights down all her thoughts on her life and life in general. This movie and reading my aunt's blog inspired me to start one of my own. Plus, I have a lot of thoughts to share and not many people to share them with.

So anyways, I got back from my trip to Virginia today. It was awesome. I loved seeing my aunt Patrcia and uncle Beau. But I absolutely LOVED getting to know my newest cousin, Benton. We bonded quite a bit, and I am currently having Benton withdrawls. I'm definitely going to have to visit him again soon! He gives the bestest hugs! And he's such a cuddler...i love babies that cuddle. But, dont tell him I called him a baby...he just turned one so hes a big boy now! hahaha. i love him so much!

But anyways, i have a lot more to talk about but i seriously need to get to packing. Have to hed back to SFA tomorrow morning. Yuck. I am so ready for summer. But too bad I have to take a month of summer classes!! @#&^%#&*&^%^* ugh lets no go there...it only gets me frustrated.  So anyways until next time...

"Every song ends, but is that any reason not to enjoy the music? -p.sawyer (one tree hill)